Changes

So, I was crying watching silly movies for a few days. That didn't last for long. Shortly after my period ended, my breasts stopped aching and I am back to being my stoic self. That is too bad because I was hoping to see an increase in my bra size, even for just a little while. Instead what I am getting is a bloated tummy and gas - I know, it's really adorable. I noticed a couple of days ago that I was looking a bit thick around the middle. Thankfully, I don't think it's fat - I believe and I hope it's just water retention.

I was having hot flashes like it was my job for a couple of weeks, the strangest thing, I would be going on about my business and then it would hit, and I can't function, all I know is that it's devastatingly hot and I need it to stop. I'd get all pink and sweaty...not cute. Preview to menopause, not looking forward to it. Anyway, good news is, the hot flashes have stopped in the past few days, I think it has to do with the lower dosage of hormones, or maybe my body's learned to adapt.

All the doctors' visits are definitely making me cranky. I'm supposed to be there between 7:00am and 9:00am - are you kidding me?! I don't do mornings! The past few weeks was ok, because I was only going maybe ever 4 days or so. But this week, it's almost every day they want to take blood and do sonograms. Today, which is Turkey day eve, our office manager was supposed to have the day off, and I would cover for her, HOWEVER, the fertility clinic wanted me to come in the morning. I wrote them a very nice email explaining that I had to be at work all day from 7:30am til 5:30pm, and that I couldn't come in but that I would be happy to do so at any other time. Oh boy, I got a very angry response back from the nurse, scolding me for about 2 pages on how important these monitoring sessions are and that she went over the fact that there wouldn't be flexibility in my office visits before I started the cycle, yadda yadda yadda. So I messaged the poor, overworked office manager and she very kindly agreed to come in and cover me while I went to be monitored. So as I'm lying there with my feet in the stirrups and the doc prodding me with the sonogram stick, he's lecturing me about the importance of the office visits. OMG. I KNOW THAT. So I tried to explain that I wasn't being resistant to the visits, it's just that for the holidays, people take time off and I need to be there! GAWD!! So frustrating. I'm sure they're gonna want to see me again on Friday. I can't wait for this to be done. T-10 days (give or take a couple)!!